To Whom Much Is Given…

This weekend I had a very moving encounter. Well, at least to me it was moving. I saw a friend at a party. I had not seen her in a while and after the formalities of hugs and kisses, she told me she and her husband read my some of my post. She told me that I should write a book. Whoa! I ran outside and smoked a cigarette.

I was moved because what she said, made me think about my life. Not that I am going to sit down and pen a novel any time soon, but how my friend isn't the first person to say that to me.

I started writing this blog after reading about how people were making money by placing ads on their sites. I thought I could make some extra cash. Then I started writing. And writing. And writing, It was easy for me because I am an insomniac and I could do it at night when the kids were sleeping.

I have always loved writing. It is a release. It allows me to get shit off my chest. But I am my own worst critic, I don't even read my own shit until a few days after I post… It is this weird thing about me, I would even do this in English classes. Just turn shit in, without having proofread a thing! My papers would always come back marked up for grammatical errors, but with high marks for content. It's just me. And when I started getting recognition in school for some of my writings, I stopped going. When people started complimenting me on this site, I stopped writing.

So, back to why what my friend said got me thinking about my life. The thing about it is, I am afraid. Not afraid to write, but afraid to have to write. I was afraid to meet the expectations of teachers. I was afraid to have to write for an A. I know it is crazy, but hey, I'm crazy…And most recently I have been afraid to post to this site for fear of not meeting expectations. I am sure this same fear has seeped it's way into other areas of my life. I told you, I am crazy! Look it up…

Anywhoo, I have decided that my excuse is played and will no longer be acceptable. It was lame anyway.

Thank you friend! Like I said before, I probably won't be writing a novel any time soon, but you sure got me thinking!